If you aren’t telling me to believe in God or your faith, then please don’t tell me having no faith can lead to a “lonely experience when it comes time to draw on that faith.”

I have thought about it. I am college educated. I have grown up in a religious family. And over the years, I ahve decided not to believe in God – that is my choice. I ask you to respect it as I respect yours. As to your “Wouldn’t this suck if this was really it?” – I think that’s kind of a circular argument or at least an argument with no logic. In fact, I find it absolutely amazing such a world exists… the intrinsic beauty, nature, animals, the human body… absolutely fascinating. And the fact God didn’t create it for me is even MORE fascinating. This may sound like gobblety gook for you, and may have a desire to change my mind – but please don’t make an attempt, as it is futile for either of us, and I have learned to respect the opinions of others.

See, even thought I don’t have faith to “draw on” or “keep me strong in hard times,” I have learned to rely on myself, my family, and a few minor friends I know will be there for me. In fact, I just traveled the European continent and created life experiences for myself that many Americans will never see. And I’ve learned things about myself and life that will lead me to a more mature, understanding man. I’m not saying I’m even close to understanding purpose or life, but I am learning as I go – and that’s more than 99% of Americans can say for themselves.

I’ll leave you with this,

“Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry, and narrow-mindedness, and many of our people need it sorely on these accounts. Broad, wholesome, charitable views of men and things cannot be acquired by vegetating in one little corner of the earth all one’s lifetime.”
Mark Twain (The Innocents Abroad/Roughing It)

Until one challenges their own views – they’re fucked.

I too, find myself in your blog on a random google search to find which city this corner can be found….not sure if it real or imagined.

I’m also in college but on the “other side of the desk” as a part time adjunct in addition to my real job. Alex, the feelings you expressed in your posted are very deep and very “normal” for a young woman in college…finding yourself is part of the college experience as are the pressures of semester life which you seem to be releasing(good for you!). Keep being you and all will be well ) Write your book and share with the world!(PS Phrases are copywritten & the Fray’s legal team has no doubt buttoned that one up to make $ on T shirts, signs, etc.)

I suspect that if you asked God what you’ve done wrong you would be pleased with the response you receive. The God that I know has much to give and if you listen closely you’ll find that God is on that corner, on your sofa, in your classroom and anywhere else you may need him/her. If you are a reader, try “The Shack” on for size for some thought provoking material

Mind you I’m a Christian person and don’t generally share my thoughts. Chris, you need to find your corner of 1st & Amistad as having no faith can lead to a very lonely ecperience when the times comes that you need to draw on your own faith…again, I’m not telling you to believe in my God, my faith, etc..just believe in something…think about it…wouldn’t it suck if this was really it??!

Good luck to you both along the way.

Jack

I hope you get to read this. I honestly don’t know how good wordpress is about letting people know the blogger has replied to a comment.

Anyways, just wanted to say I really appreciate your comment. Sorry it took me a while to respond, but I don’t blog much these days because I’m so busy at school. Interestingly enough, though, I have to admit I had to re-read my own entries to get what you were saying. I was thinking, “Omg, can I be that emo?? lol”

But anyways, happy very belated birthday! Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog. I guess I can no longer argue no one reads this. =]

ANYWAYS…. I hope what you are struggling with is over and you found the right path. Actually, I don’t think there is a right path… I think we are always making the path for ourselves that best suits our needs. Regardless, I hope you have found tranquility. I don’t believe in God, and no longer really desire to or want to. However, if you do end up writing the book, let me know… I’ll be the first to pick up a copy.

Until then!

Cheers
Chris

You know, despite all the bad things that happened today, that is the one thing I gaze back on and feel absolutely hurt over. How dare I…? How dare I.

Anyways, I apologize… I came home, looking for lyrics to a song I didn’t know (Apparently it was The Fray, You Found Me) and found it on your blog… I was really just going to copy them into a notepad somewhere and use them, but something in your message caught my eye, and I started reading. Ironically, I found you. I read a few things about you, and I hope you don’t think I’m just some random idiot that doesn’t feel, or think, or anything, just sort of wants to warp your mind… I just want to say.

I just want to say, It’s okay.

Really, it’s okay. You can go to Disneyland until you’re eighty if you want to. You can watch a childish movie and enjoy it, you can eat an ice cream cone and get that little splotch of vanilla or chocolate on your nose. Who cares? It’s your life, it’s you. You’re all that matters. You. I hope I don’t seem overly dramatic, I’m a romantic, and I feel pain, joy, and moments where I want to scream like everyone else. I’m just more obvious about it I suppose…

But I just wanted you to know that you do have this. You do. It was in your grasp all along. And I completely understand not having anyone to talk to… I’ve been a bit luckier recently though, I do have a friend or two online (sad, huh?) that I tell things to, and they don’t ask for anything in return, and they don’t shout at me for pushing my problems on them, they just sit and listen, comfort me and help me.

I’m kinda the same way, I also feel like crap much of the time, sometimes I don’t even know why. So what about the homeless looking guy?! But I say that, and I feel even worse, and it’s just how my heart works I guess. I can’t stand hurting or being cruel to people, and when I do… I won’t let myself forget it, heavens no I won’t, not in a million years. Not ever. In death I’ll regret it too. Not even offering him something.

Even the strong need to eat, drink, sleep and stop… and breathe. You’re already strong, now you just need someone to recharge your batteries from time to time. Well, my e-mail is two-tails@hotmail.com…

I’m sorry if I don’t check it too often, life has its own paths for me I guess sometimes, I know this is completely random and weird, and again I’m really sorry if it seems that way, but I was just looking for “You Found Me” and I found you, and read about you, realized we’re kind of similar, and that no one should be alone, and just… I have this feeling that I need to comment, so I will. Even if you never e-mail me, or never respond, or never read this. I feel like I need to say something, I just… have to say something, anything, and here I am going on for years, I need to shut up now.

Anyways there was a quote I’d heard or saw somewhere once… I think it went… “When you’re scared to look ahead, and afraid of what’s behind, you can look beside you, and your best friend will be there.”

Finish this up. It better be completed by my next studying break. haha.

Kyle
http://kmcneal.wordpress.com

…and they smell nice. =]

Kyle
http://kmcneal.wordpress.com